Friday 30 March 2007

Off on holiday in a few hours

Heading off in 4 hours- train to London then off to Germany tomorrow morning. So looking forward to seeing my niece! Beware, there will be baby photos and general gooeyness coming this way...

Trepidation of course- taking 8 days worth of supplies with me- a soup and a bar every day plus 2 shakes. I don't normally have a bar every day because I worry about being knocked out of ketosis, but if we are out and about it will be handy. However you look at it this is a challenge, so I will be so pleased if I can stick to the diet and even more pleased if I lose weight by the time I get back, especially as that will take me into the 14 stones for the first time since I don't know how long- 15 years? I think the biggest challenge will be the water, as it was when I was away last time. Its difficult when your travelling, and difficult when you are out every day esp because public toilets are not terribly common in Germany- so it will probably be a lot of drinking in the evening and peeing all night- thank god the in-laws have 2 bathrooms!

Anyway had my pop-in and the weigh in was good news- 2 and a quarter punds since Monday which takes me to 15 stone and a quarter- shame it wasn't 15 stone dead, but that little quarter will niggle me til its gone, so every time I am tempted I will think about it!

It will be difficult to blog while I am away, as will ahve to rely on in-laws clunky PC, but I have started a diary thread on minimins (can i resist temptation) as it will be easy to do quick posts there, so I will keep you up to date with any trials and tribulations.

Here is the up to date tracker- cannot wait to see what it says when I get back- no chance at all of weighing myself before 8th April.



Good luck to all- keep those losses coming!
Kx

Monday 26 March 2007

Goal reached, but tainted, why am I such a B!

Finally getting a chance to post- hectic times. Spent all weekend in the garden, finally got the veg beds planted- just hope I reach my goal before anything delicious grows- I don't like the radishes and I am allergic to lettuce, so don't mind missing them when they are ready in a couple of months. And a lot of the veg is fine for early stages of management- rocket, spinach, berries, and the peas beans and root veg (parsnip and jerusalem artichokes) won't be ready until much later in the year-yum!

Anyway, sorry for the long gap, but I did reach my goal this week! Yep I have reached the 2 stone mark and lost another quarter pound in addition as a wee bonus. So I was dead chuffed to have done that by 6 weeks- but then it all got spolied. Other half forgot to ask me how my weigh-in went, and after I had made such a fuss about hoping to reach 2 stone this week I felt really upset about it. So we had a bit of a row- you know me saying you are selfish and the OH saying I'm not feeling too well I just forgot I get confused about your weigh-ins. So all that good feeling was totally lost. And I felt rotten for being so upset about it but couldn't help it. Anway, flowers have just been brought home, and I did console myself with a trip to M&S- just bought a t-shirt and some smaller size knicks (plus a sexy pair for the undeserving OH- they won't be seen for a good while yet!).

So I am trying to get the good feeling back, but it isn't coming- I am pretty sure this is TOTM and PMS is probably to blame- we are going out for a walk together now so maybe that will help. Am I being unduly sensitive, a bit of a bitch?

I guess I am also a bit tense about our holiday- 8 days away from home is going to be a big challenge. I have packed all my meals and the in-laws have been briefed on how the diet works and not to worry that I don't eat or keep grilling me about it. But I am still a bit tense- just want to manage it, but perhaps there is a little bit of me that is also resentful (internal chatterbox) telling me its a holiday and I should be able to relax and do (eat) what I want. Got to get into a better state of mind!

Will update ticker later- will miss a weigh-in but going to pop-in on Thursday so will get done then and see how it goes!

God I'm a miserable cow today- what a contrast from my last post- must be bipolar or something!!
Kx

Thursday 22 March 2007

Weight loss vs hair loss?

Okay, last night was one of those moments... you know when you hear something bad and you could overeact like mad or just take it in your stride. Let it be known that I am one of the world's greatest overeactors (drama queen not to put too fine a point on it!)- but this diet can lead you into a zen like state (as Lesley has noted!), so I didn't. What happened? Oh yes- well I was enjoying my Indian Head Massage course very much- it is very practical and we massage each other almost constantly for two hours- and my friend and massage partner said oh my god you are shedding hair! And she had to brush hair off my back- now I have very short, very thick dark hair (thanks grandad!), and it never sheds in noticeable amounts. And then I remembered- possible side effect of LL. But all the threads say it happens when you restart food- so what the f***!!

And then I said to myself- okay, a bit of hair loss- you are almost 2 stone lighter than 6 weeks ago. It'll come back- anyway you got loads, so is anyone going to really notice? Yes, my hair is my pride and joy (any port in a storm when you are a 'larger lady')- but weight loss will give me a few more assets to be proud of...and karma returned. And I realised that I won't let anything-ANYTHING- stand in the way of this diet and reaching my goal. I am in love with this diet- if this diet needed a kidney I'd be first in the queue! I know this is weird. I know I should not be this emotional about a diet- but I cannot imagine ever leaving the diet behind. The though of saying goodbye is almost too much to bear. What happened to the 'omg I'll never not eat for 100 days, I cannot wait for it to be over and eat a bag of crisps again' attitude. How can I not want the diet to end????

Perhaps it was all that indian head- perhaps learning how to cleanse chakras has lifted me closer to nirvanah. Perhaps I am just mad (quite frankly I have actually been mad in the past). Who knows? Perhaps having a colonic (my two stone 'treat'-see ideas for treats thread on minimins) will bring me back to reality?

watch this space...
kx

Monday 19 March 2007

The BIG Step and a small challenge



Okay if you look at my ticker you might notice 2 things:
1) I have lost another 3.5 lbs this week (yippee), so I am not going to be seeing dwindling returns on this diet which was my greatest fear.
2) I ahve changed my target from an overweight BMI (169 lbs) to a healthy BMI (141 lbs).

So I have done it, I have made the decision to go all the way- I am scared but also elated as I have decided that making this big a sacrifice deserves a truly amazing reward. What this means is that I will probably have to spend 100 days in development after 100 days in Foundation, which sounds forever- until you consider that the end point is sometime in the early autumn- so I could go from morbidly obese to a healthy BMI in just over half a year! I have been getting some lovely compliments already, so imagine what it will be like in a few motnhs. Imagine what it will be like to wear a slinky cocktail dress during the Christmas party season for the FIRST TIME EVER!

As for the small challenge- well another 3.5 lbs and I will have lost 2 stone so that is my target for this week- to have lost two stone by the time 6 weeks are complete. The only problem is how to get there? This diet is what it is- yopu can't be more strct with yourself, and I have lost more this week (no swimming, but good steps) than last week with tons of swimming- so exercise (though good) may not accelerate my weight loss. Perhaps the only way is to drink more (!) water- after not drinking enough at the beginning of last week I upped to at least 5 litres per day for the rest of the week- it was like being back to week one of the diet in the peeing stakes, but it seems to have done the trick. So perhaps I will try for 6 litres a day this week and see what happens. If you hear a sloshing sound it will be me!

Saturday 17 March 2007

I'm Back!

Sorry to all the people who have been following my Blog- as you will know I was away for three days at the beginning of the week for a funeral and then a conference, and of course when I got back to workI had well over 100 e-mails and even after the spam about 60 required my attention, plus all the meetings that couldn't happen earlier in the week were in my diary over Thursday and Friday-eek!

So here I am, having missed a weigh-in, all my swimming and my evening class this week, so feeling like being a bit selfish- normally that means food but instead bought 5 books (all on special offer so less than £30) and a new fleece hooded top reduced from 65 to 20 in Black's- when I do it up it shows up my fatness but wearing it loose is fine and it will look nice zipped up in a couple of weeks. Also bought my baby niece some thinsulate booties- soooooo cute. She will be too small to wear them now but by next winter they will be great. Did I mention by baby shoe fetish? I just love tiny shoes and have resisted buying them because I know it will become an expensive obsession, but now I have the perfect little excuse. Just 2 weeks until we see her for the first time, she will be 9 weeks old by then.

The funeral went really well, and the time following it was really nice family time- no tensions over secrets etc or things about money. We all loved my grandad very much but he could be very funny about money, as he grew up in poverty in southern Italy and had no idea what the cost of things were, so he was always criticising my nan for spending too much. There was a lot of food after the funeral- didn't have any- but the next day we had a big family lunch at our favourite restaurant and I had 3 slices of roast beef. Its a carvery, and you could help yourself to all the veg, roasties yorkies you wanted but I didn't touch anything else. I had one shake less to compensate as if I were in management and it didn't seem to knock me out of ketosis and I am sure I have lost this week. Still not a habit to get into!

The conference went really well too- presented twice and it went down very well- considering I had been dreading it I came away with a spring in my step, soon dampened by having to stand on the train from Birmingham til Derby, but got a seat in the end. The major problem with being away was drinking water- just couldn't get the time to get it down me, but have rectified that in the last few days and its been peeing for england and scotland ever since!

Although I missed weigh-in my scales showed a 2.5 loss which took me to a stone and a half off. Bit disappointed, but I guess I must resign myself to 2.5-3 lb losses every week. That means I will have to go beyond Foundation by 8 weeks to hit my original target, but you know what I am up for it, I really am. I will see how the losses maintain but am still thinking of adjusting my target down from 29.9 BMI to 25.

FYI I look so skinny today (in my terms). Size 18 skinny jeans and a size 20 (boobs will always make me a size bigger on top, but hey they have their advantages :) ) long-sleeved t-shirt. Saw a close friend this morning who has not seen me since January: she was totally impressed. Hurrah hurray!!
Kxxx

Saturday 10 March 2007

I know, I know

Yep I am too lazy and haven't posted for ages! Lots of things going on this week, very busy at work and I am away for 3 days next week- also have been conked out and in bed by 10 every night for some reason. Perhaps because I am generally getting a bit more exercise?

Not sure I am losing much weight this week, though back in (admittedly generous) size 18 jeans. Very snug, but no harm in that and I do have a decent bottom for a big girl (I have been told).

People are beginning to notice my weight loss- though from my face rather than anywhere else yet, but all compliments welcome. Seeing my family this week for my grandad's funeral (any tips on what to do at a catholic funeral?), so they might see a difference, though of course most thoughts will be on grandad. Lots of people saying how good my skin is looking- this diet has worked wonders for the spots I usually get around my neck- reduced almost to nothing, and I got really annoyed when one appeared the other day!

I have to admit that I cheated this week- my department ran two events and canapes and lunch were available- it was too tempting, and I wish I hadn't but I ate some chicken bites one day and some salmon the next day- small amounts and I am sure that, as it was protein, it didn't knock me out of ketosis, but very naughty and feel suitably gulty. Just had 3 packs yesterday to make up for it and back on track today. Looking forward not back!

Bought myself some handweights so I can do toning while I watch the TV and keep the bingo wings at bay. I have to say that the swimming I do seems to keep my skin reasonably tomed and elastic, so I hope I won't be left with anything too bad in the skin department. Have decided on a course of wraps and cellulite treatment towards the end of the diet to make sure I give myself every chance of toned bod.

I have also decided that, as long as this diet keeps working I will stay on it until I get to a lower weight than planned- I had set the target of 12 stone, but now an thinking 1ostone 7 would be achievable. When I started 14 weeks felt like forever and an impossible task but with only 10 weeks left, it all seems manageable, in fact 10 weeks seems like a very short time and I will regret the diet being finished. Could I become an addict?

Its been a cold day here, desperate to get into the garden and start planting (hope I will reach target before harvesting!) but no go today- just a short trip to feed carrots to the horses and that is it. Hope tomorrow is better! Will do more toning to make up for lack of activity.

Won't be able to post until late next week, hopefully I will have completed the challenge of travelling and being away while on the diet- have decided to take a bar for every day I am away and attempt to have a hot soup on the evenings. Making up a colde shake while out and about is quite easy, so its all doable- will let you know!

Monday 5 March 2007

Week 3 weigh in, all sorts of milestones

Well, I have got through the 'dreaded' week 3!! I say this as, looking at the message boards this seems to be the week when determination wavers a little and also for some peole a week of ver small weight loss. But happily I have lost 3.5 lbs- total is now 18.5 lbs gone in 3 weeks- happy, happy, especially as TOTM came and went this week! I am now in the 15 stones for the first time in about 18 months, and well under the awful morbidly obese BMI. Also a shake's width away from fitting into size 18s, so a lot of very underused clothes are coming out of the wardrobe. Bought size 20 jeans last Monday to celebrate last week's loss, wore them on saturday to find that they are too big- never mind they are from M&S, so should be able to exchange for size 18 (they were £15 so I don't think I was too indulgent to buy them). In fact have been looking at outlet shops for clothes, and have picked up a cheap shirt too- which will fit me by the time I want to wear it next week.

So some nice milestones out of the way- including more than 20% through the diet now (and 6.5% of my body weight lost!). I would like to have lost more than 10% (24 lbs) of my original weight by the end of week 5, I think that is quite an easy challenge as less than 6 lbs to go- in fact I hope I can get there by next weigh in.

Saturday night was a bit of torture- I ran the quiz night for our big wifie's night in at a local pub- there were nibbles afterwards, trays and trays of sausage rolls, garlic humous on pitta, sandwiches, crisps...aaaaaagh! I had saved a shake for going home though, so focussed on that and not a crumb passed my lips. Left early though and felt like a party-pooper, but hey, losing weight is more important than being the entertainment for a little while, and friends will understand- although I have not told any of my friends about being on the diet- I don't see them very often with the commuting I do, so I am hoping to emerge, swanlike, from the layers of fat and have them all be amazed. Next time we meet will be early April, so another momth to really make an impression.

Anyway, work is now piling onto my desk again so had better get back to what I am paid for!


Saturday 3 March 2007

Standing still

Been very busy, but my weight seems to be staying the same- message boards confirm that third week is often disappointing, but stick with it!!

I need to do quite a bit of travelling in the next few weeks and that will be the first time on the doet. Little bit worried about coping- there is something psychological abut travelling that makes me very hungry- maybe it is the urge for home comforts! Also any awkwardness about being able to have shakes- but then all I need is the shaker and water. On the whole much easier than Atkins- meat and cheese don't travel very well and low-carb snacks were very rare when I did it- once did a whole day on one tiny bit of salmon, no wonder I lost weight!!

Have bought a load of size 20 clothes as motivation- I am squashed into them at the moment, but ina week or two they will fit just great. Trying not to spend too much on clothes, but couldn't resist- hope I am not replacing food witha clothes habit.

Running a pub quiz tonight- there wil be offers of drink and there are nibbles too, but just water for me- will eat just before leaving and can always have a savoury sachet when I get back.

Its a gorgeous day today, I should really have my butt outdoors, but there is a nip in the air and I am feeling a bit lazy...not good enough, garden beckons.

Thursday 1 March 2007

BMI bereavemnet blues

Didn't post yesterday as my grandad died in the morning and it didn't feel right to blog. He was 86 and it was expected, so not a big shock but still. I was thinking how much of him is in me and the rest of my family. He was Italian, and we have all inherited the very dark looks, the Italian temprement and very much the the figure! I am very lucky to have an hour-glass shape- the healthiest to have if you are overweight and I don't think I look as big as I really am nor as big as others who weigh less but are not in proportion- not fair is it! The funeral is on 12th March, and I daresay it will hit me then.

My BMI went below MORBIDLY OBESE yesterday- still obese and one poorly-timed wee from being MORBIDLY OBESE again, so not out of the clutches of the grim reaper- but as all my Italian aunties weighed 20-25 stone when they died, all in their 90's maybe I shouldn't panic too much.

So here's to my Italian grandad, and my love of food and the good things in life that come from him- I haven't stopped loving food grandad, just getting some control over it. Miss ya

Kathy

Tuesday 27 February 2007

Bloated!

Felt so bloated last night- could hardly bring myself to have my shakes (I had two to have at dinner time). This happens of course!

Still enjoying this diet more than any other I have been on- sounds bizarre I know, especially if you have never single-sourced, but the results are so good and it really really is easier just to say no to food altogether. Some wedding cake arrived this morning from one of my team, and I didn't even think about having a bit as its a special occasion, nor am I missing having it. I can see now why some people on the message boards get terrified of going back to food during management- managing food and dieting is very hard compared to no food at all.

The way I feel now I could quite happily go on with this diet and try to lose more than my original target, and get down to my 'ideal' weight rather than being much slimmer but a wee bit overweight. As I sit here with my shirt and trousers literally falling off me, it all seems doable- why didn't I know about this diet before!! Perhaps it is only now that I am older and wiser that I am ready to do it amd stick with it. Though willpower is not really my problem- more defiance! Why shouldn't I be a big girl etc- and of course there is nothing wrong per se in being a big girl and I still am believe me. But when it starts to hurt your legs even to be curled up on the sofa, well then that is the time to make a change I reckon.

Its a miserable day- wish I could have walked yesterday, but never mind. Swim tonight and then on with big slapfuls of Dove firming lotion- all the message boards swear by it so I hope it will do the trick and keep a bit of firmness in my flesh. And when I go to the spa I am going to have the complete Thalgo treatment to firm me up and remove cellulite- too shy to have this before in case the paper knickers were too small for me!!!!

Bring on those paper knickers- by June I will be ready for you!

Monday 26 February 2007

Yippee!




Second weigh in and 15 pounds lost in total- I really hoped I would lose the stone in two weeks, so beat my mini-milestone by a pound. Really pleased- for me! Already have to wave goodbye to one suit- hardly worn so will try to sell it on e-bay. Fitting into clothes that I fit in to a couple of years ago, so no need to go mad on new ones yet.

Had a couple of lemon bars at the weekend- absolutely foul as bars but strangely enjoyable as little biscuits done in the microwave- though I still had the taste in my mouth when I woke up this morning, even though I had brushed my teeth twice.

The weather was foul all weekend but managed a swim, and then on Saturday afternoon got the urge to go for a walk- just a short one in the 'gloaming' (misty dusk for those non-Scots out there). So although I didn't get my gardening exercise I did okay. My average steps for the past week are also up more than a thousand a day on the first week of the diet- I think the energy has finally kicked in! Would love to go for a really long walk today, as the sun is out, but have to work (in fact should be working right now, so had better stop).

Hope all you LLers had a fab weekend and are looking forward to your weigh-ins.

Thanks for blogging and keeping me on the straight and narrow.

Friday 23 February 2007

Day 12- feeling good/bad!

Feeling great about the diet today and what a good decision it has been to undertake it. Also helped by Lesley who sensibly commented on the urge to weigh- come one all of us overweight chicks do it all the time don't we! I have sometimes weighed after every pee- and always pee before a weigh even if I don't really need to. Breaking the realtionship with my scales could be just as important as breaking my relationship with food!

I had a go at putting a ticker into my blog- I will update it after weigh-in every week and no more than that I promise.

That's the feeling good bit- now the feeling bad. Far from having loads of increased energy, I often feel totally pooped. My habit is to get up at 6.15 and be in the pool by 6.45, do 30-40 lengths and then be in work by 8am. This week I have only managed to do that every other day. This morning (like some other mornings) I woke up with a pounding heart and felt totally ill and exhausted. Mind you I ahve been to two gigs this week, and have upped my steps, so I've not been slumped on the sofa every night like the old me. I have decided to listen to my body though (not me head), and if I wake up too tired to relax and not swim. And if I feel okay- I am there at the pool- will up my lengths a bit on those days to help out.

I will go to get my blood pressure checked- it was perfectly fine before the diet, on the elevated side of normal but nothing to worry about. Will be interesting to see if it has gone up! Anyway couple of firsts coming up this weekend- first bar (I have resisted until now) and found a great recipe for a 'milkshake'- without the milk of course. Loads of ice cubes and a raspberry shake in the blender- yum!

I must be a really lucky girl, because I like the taste of all the soups and shakes- some people will only eat chocolate, but to be honest I could take or leave that one. Love the caramel- especially as that is the sweet craving that I have- I am not a sweet-toothed person at all, but fudge and caramel do it for me I'm afraid.

Anyway it is shake time now!

Test

To see if this ticker thin can go into a blog!


Thursday 22 February 2007

Day 11- ten per cent of the way there?

No post yesterday- terribly stressed at work, but did not nibble on stuff as I would ahve done in the past. I am very aware that I normally eat a healthy breakfast and go on til lunch quite happily. Then from lunch time it is a non-stop eating/snacking fest until about 4pm. I think my energy gets low in the afternoons- I know I am very much a morning person, love being up just after 6am and heading for a swim before work, and I love being the first person in- quality time to get e-mails out of the way.

I still feel a bit of an afternoon slump on this diet- yesterday was soooooo bad! I was in a meeting that lasted over 3 hours and there were very nice biscuits. Everyone had one at the start- no problem for me, I had a tea (and had just had a savoury drink). Then about two hours in everyone started getting themselves another bsicuit- and after that there was one left on the plate- I must have looked at that biscuit and thought about that biscuit for over an hour- feeling really hungry and on the one hand telling myself I didn't need it, but on the other thinking- I could nibble a little bit slowly, just to take the hunger away. But I resisted- so glad I did, but it left me in a foul mood until I was able to get home and have a double shake before going out again (saw Joan Armatrading, fantastic!). Anyway, the shake was great- raspberry and chocolate mixed up with a blender, very tasty!

Then I weighed myself this morning, and of course, I have only lost a pound since weigh-in- gutted. So I have done this little list to help myself:

You will lose weight on this diet- you burn off what you eat just by breathing so everything else you do is reducing your weight!

You will probably retain water somedays, especially if you didn't make your 4 litres- so drink, drink, drink

The body goes through all sorts of changes throughout the day, never mind a week- the weekly loss and overall loss are what matter

You are exercising well- keeping your steps up above last week, and swimming 30-40 lengths 4 times per week. All this will make a difference.

If you add muscle, your weight might not drop so much- but remember this muscle will help you burn calories for free!

Some weeks you will drop inches but not much weight- keep getting those measurements.

Anyway that is my little boosting list- and now I need to run to the loo.

And to anyone that has had to work with me during this diet- sorry about the bad breath!

Tuesday 20 February 2007

P.S.

Wore a new (to me) jacket today to work, size 20, won't do up round the front, but fits my shoulders nicely. New clothes are always a boost- how did I get so girly about clothes?

Day 9- being good to myself

It has been very important to me to add in activities and treats to this diet. I have two holidays during the diet and a short break booked in shortly after the 100 days (when I will still be using shakes but adding limited food). The first holiday is the beginning of April when I will be seeing my baby niece for the first time- as a first time aunt I suddenly have this feeling of resposibility towards this little girl- mad isn't it as her parents are going to be fabulous. Perhaps it is because I know I won't be having kids myself. Anyway, I want her to have a slim and fit auntie to play with and visit in years to come. That will be an easy holiday, because we are staying with family and will do a lot of walking and drinking tea and coffee, and it will be easy to fit in my shakes with their meal times. Danger points will be
1) Visiting Lubeck (home of marzipan and where they make the most delicious cream cake I have ever tasted)
2) The Hamburg Dome (or fair) where the smell of hot sugary donuts and apple puffs can make you salivate

So if I can get over those the rest should be plain sailing.

Then in May we are going to Skye for a walking holiday- day 100 falls in the middle of that week and I have promised to take my partner for birthday dinner at the three chimneys. From what I have been reading about the next stage, I should be okay if I stick to one food group that night- which should be fine as they specialise in fish- so plain grilled fish no sauce for me!

In June we will have 2 days at the spa- it is a 5 star hotel with a michelin starred restaurant and by that time I should be able to have dinner, so long as I am very careful about what I choose from the menu.

So all of this sounds like I am desperate to get back to old eating ways, but I don't think I am really. I am amazed at how little I care about 'eating' food these days. Losing the weight and feeling fit is what I focus on- and the treats in store- like completing my indian head massage course and being able to offer friends a treat! All I used to offer friends was dinner- my gift to them- now I will have something else to offer, and they will probably appreciate it more.

Just 91 days to go- it doesn't seem like a big number any more!
Weird...

Monday 19 February 2007

First entry-Day 8

Welcome to my lighter life. I have started this blog because I have been reading the blogs of people on the lighter life diet, which I started on Moday 12th February 2007. I have found reading other blogs inspirational, particularly when the hunger pangs came at the beginning of the diet last week. Now I thought I would start my own, and hopefully help others who are doing this diet. For those of you unfamiliar with it, it is a Very Low Calorie Diet (VLCD), during which you receive counselling weekly. What does VCLD mean? Well it means c.530 calories per day plus at least 4 litres of water- and that is it. Sounds terrifying? Well it is, but you will not be alone throughout the process and it works- well I have been on this diet for one week and have lost 9.5 pounds! The diet is scheduled to last for a minimum of 100 days, during which time any person doing the diet and sticking to it should lose 3 stone.

My target is bigger than that though- I would like to lose 5 stone, as I weighed 17stone 2.75 pounds when the diet began- even with the weight loss this week I am still 'morbidly obese'. If I get down to 12 stone my BMI will make me 'overweight'- if I want to get down to ideal weight I will have to lose another 2 stone! This is a big challenge for me- the lowest I can remember weighing was 13 and a half stone when I was coming to the end of University (17 years ago). I did Atkins very successfully 4 years ago and lost almost 4 stones, but have put 2 stones back on since then- but am very proud of the weight I kept off, and decided I didn't want to creep back up to nearly 19 stone- I am only 5ft 3" and one of my doctors once told me that I was the most obese person he had ever seen. I hated him for that, but he did motivate me to do something about it! (B******!)

So the vitals as of today:
height 5ft 3"
weight 16 stone 7.25 pounds
size- 20 in trousers, 22 in jackets and shirts
Total weight loss on Lighter Life 9.5lbs


Please feel free to comment on my blog and very very good luck to you if you are trying lighter life. A big up to Lesley the solicitor and to Christine who works in the Nationwide who inspired me to not eat and to start my own blog- go for it gals!